an exciting day! mover for 1st 2 services and mover + usher for 3rd service.. haha.. tiring but all is worth it!! doing them for God! saw lots of ppl crossing the line to know God.. wow.. wad a wonderful sight! God blessed NYP2 with 2 new brothers too! praise God!!
wow.. went for the easter service rehearsal! wow. the drama is damn cool! really excited for tml service! i'm supposed to be the mover for the first two services with alvin and cedric. have to carry the 'victim' down the stage with stretcher of crse.. haha.. yup the drama is a suspense thriller.. yea. the song + rap presentation is cool too. thanx God for eilton, jo-n and jeremy.. after the rehearsal, help darren and liyan with the easter decoration.. hee.. managed to hang the disco ball on top of the ceiling with fishing strings.. too bad it cant rotate coz the rotator is too heavy to be hung on top.. after that had dinner, shop ard PS looking for vcds and my usher red polo tee..
While taking a class in photography at the University of Cincinnati, a Christian became acquainted with a young man named Charles Murray who also was a student at the school and training for the summer Olympics as a high diver. Charles was very patient, listening to him for hours about how Jesus had saved him. Charles was not raised in a home that attended any kind of church, so all that was told to him was a fascination. He even began to ask questions about forgiveness of sin. Finally, the day came that the question was put to him, Have you realized your need of a Redeemer, and are you ready to trust Christ as your Savior?' His countenance fell and the guilt was in his face. But his reply was a strong "No." In the days that followed, he was quiet and often avoided the believer until one day Charles decided to call him. He wanted to know where to look in the New Testament for some verses about salvation. He declined to meet but thanked the Christian for the Scripture references. He was greatly troubled but was not ready to receive help. Because he was training for the Olympic games, Charles had special privileges at the university pool facilities. Some time between 10:30 and 11:00 that evening, he decided to go swim and practice a few dives. It was a clear night in October, and the moon was big and bright. The University pool was housed under a ceiling of glass panes, so the moon shone bright across the top of the wall in the pool area. Charles climbed to the highest platform to take his first dive. At that moment the Spirit of God began to convict him of his sins. All the scripture he had read, all the occasions of witnessing to him about Christ flooded his mind. He stood on the platform backwards to make his dive, spread his arms to gather his balance looked up to the all, and saw his own shadow caused by the light of the moon. It was in the shape of a cross. He could hear the burden of his sin no longer. His heart broke, and he sat down on the platform and asked God to forgive him and save him. He trusted Jesus Christ twenty-some feet in the air. Suddenly, the light in the pool area came on. The attendant had come in to check the pool. As Charles looked down from his platform he saw an empty pool, which had been drained for repairs. He had almost plummeted to his death, but the cross had stopped him from disaster. For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.The Shadow of the Cross
I Corinthians 1:18
When I'm lost in the rain, For a shield from the storm, When I lose the will to win, For a shield from the storm, For the arms to be my shelter For a shield from the storm, not exactly a biblical song sang by a ermm *cough* biblical person. ha.. but it best relates my cry to Him (God).. the lyrics are beautiful..."I Turn To You"
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared,
And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there
- pushing me to the top.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got.
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
I just reach for you and
I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing,
'Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend,
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
through all the rain,
For truth that will never change,
For someone to lean on,
For a heart I can rely on through anything,
For that one who I can run to...
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
I turn to you...
service as usual.. pastor shared a powerful and inspiring story... it really stirred my heart and strenghten my faith in Him...after service i was lost in the S11 foodcourt.. i'm like a lost sheep wondering around... i called leslie, he didnt answer my call.. i called joshua, didnt answer my call too.. sigh.. in the end i went out with darren and zhiwei... msg donovan just now.. sorry brother, couldnt celebrate ya bday.. my affirmation to ya is in the card. ya have been a wonderful brother to me.. always add laughter to the caregroup... thank God for ya... oh ya.. when i reached amk, i realised i havent collect the camp registration forms.. ah.. haiz... wad's happening to me.. i couldnt even do such a simple task God has given me.. sigh.. nobody picked my call again... planned to watch a movie but too late.. went home after that.. thank God for big jon and donnie.. thanks for asking me to join ya guys.. mayb next time when ya guys have other actitivies ba.. really appreciate alot.. btw my language of love is spending quality time if ya guys dont know.. nvm it doesnt matter anyway..
a busy week... rushing project throughout the week.. completed the slides on thursday afternoon.. presented on fri morning.. didnt sleep well.. next few weeks i'll be rushing for final presentation, AES and written reports... die.. the presentation didnt went well.. the assessers said we focued too much on the wrong stuffs.. ended up, they asked only 2 questions.. which is quite little.. not because our slides are perfect but because they dont know wad to ask based on our slides... gonna do well for the final one.. didnt know that the guys having PM on fri afternoon.. donovan told me on thursday night actually... i didnt receive any emails from leslie regarding the PM.. couldnt accompany donovan to buy his guitar stuffs because got caught up with something last min.. couldnt attend the PM too.. enjoyed myself on tuesday evening.. bring back old memories..
yay! i finally got my intron 4 results after repeated failures last wk! wow.. haha.. i couldnt really express my feelings in words how God has brought me through during this tough period... He (God) has blessed me many times during my attachment and project.. everytime i faced some technical problems during experiment, He will somehow turn failures into successful testimonies.. somehow i just managed to solve those problems.. of course not by my own wisdom, but by His wisdom and ways.. hmm i think i could finish all the normaltensive patients' samples within 2 weeks! initially i thought of giving up.. now the problem is solved! instead now i'm struggling with my presentation and reports! first presentation this fri! hmm the slides more or less are done but i feel that the animations are not there.. hmm still need to make some amendments.. but time is running up.. still havent rehearse yet.. going to do give my presentation slides a final touch later! haha.. i have so much energy right now! after the PM at rix's hse.. went for diner at KFC.. then took the same bus home together with giselle and xing xing. thank God for giselle.. she really lighten up my whole day with her 'Hi!' greeting everytime.. haha.. jiayou, mature to the next level of faith! sigh.. now my mom is lecturing me on her own theory of 'tithing' again! haha.. althought i had tried to save during sat by skiping lunch and tithe.. i even calculated properly.. for e.g now i have 30 bucks in my wallet. i'll just skip my lunch and at the end of the day make sure my wallet left 20 bucks.. haha.. spent 10 bucks on 2 meals sounds reasonable rite.. sigh i did this every wk.. make sure she dont get too affected by how much i spent.. but now she still says i spent all my money to tithe and donation.. she said every fri night my wallet at least have 30 bucks but after sat nite, my wallet will left ard 5 bucks.... diaoz.. i didnt fail my O level maths lor.. haha.. i always calculate beforehand one.. haha... i didnt really spend much... 10 bucks for 2 meals reasonable.. but nvm.. let her misunderstand me ba.. but something she said sounds true... she worked till her leg skin peeled off..coz need to run here and there mah.. quite painful.. but she still worried that i have no money to eat.. sometimes i really feel her burden and tireness.. but she dont see the big picture here.. why cant she just ignore how i'm going to spend my allowance.. even though i do skip meals but i dont feel hungry lor.. i wont torture myself one.. haha.. i really want to study hard now, work hard next time and give her my best care and support after i get a job... going to receive my attachment allowance soon.. haha.. looking forward to it! keke..
feeling so ermm sticky all over my body.. had a shower immediately after reaching home.. slept the whole morning and afternoon.. haha.. hmm.. replying lots of messages and answering calls in a half-awake mode.. haha. wondering did i send any wrong messages or say any dream words =b.. but really felt exhausted after sat's ministry duty and the collection of camp registration fee.. haiz.. it's very chaotic.. didnt really obey zhenyan's advice (collect the money during weekdays).. i made her job difficult in the end.. next time i should take a more initiative role by approaching the ppl instead of them finding me.. a special day to me.. =) thanx leslie for ya tagboard msg!
reached nexus in the morning to take care of the Hope store.. now Hope store starts operation from 11am till 8pm! haha this means that there's a time extension in my duty hrs too.. haha.. but it's sokie with me.. i really want to serve this ministry to the best that i can while i'm still in student service.. bcoz of the shortage in manpower, i had to skip the sowing class and meeting in the afternoon.. most of the time i'll be alone in the store.. tried out the new dvd player there.. quite cool.. watched the hillsong united and planet shakers' dvd.. their praise atmosphere is so high... read some books.. planning to buy the 'becoming a man of God' (forget the exact title but something like this..) book after service.. but haha somebody bought it before me.. and that's the last book left on the shelve!! sigh.. tiring day.. met a few tacky situations, receipt paper run out, cash register cannot open.. and the total cash amt doesnt tally with the system's amount.. after the service went to darren's hse.. stayed overnight watching vcd and chatting.. haha i slept halfway through the conversation! oh ya.. i finally got my Hope membership card!!! nice.. haha.. hmm encouraged by yiquan, leslie and giselle's cards.. =) cheerios!
yea today is a combined CG between NYP2 and NYP3! its really fun as most of the nyp bros are gathered together in a small settings. really feel the warmth of this family. althought i'm quite confused with the CG roles.. but overall the CG was fun and encouraging. learn alot from leslie, eilton and donovan today. thanx for praying for me before the CG start too. ya guys added strength to me.. thanx for the encoragements.. and patience with me.. haha.. coz i was abit tensed and i kept on singing too fast while practicing, didnt coordinate well with the guitarist. and my voice is drowned by the guitar.. afew times i was laughing after i start singing the first line.. suddenly i felt like i'm tone-deaf.. haha.. but thank God for the encouraging brothers! and surprisingly i can carry the tune quite okie during the worship.. must really thank God for His Spirit and anointing... except that i forget one line of the lyrics.. hmm.. really need to discipline myself well and prepare really well before the CG. i've decided to buy a guitar after i get my pay.. and learn guitar from jon-n! i really want to worship Him even when i'm at home playing the guitar.. i think it will help in my spiritual growth too.. somemore next time i can teach my sheeps too.. haha
after CG went home with yiquan... we shared some of our life and i asked for his feedback.. haha.. hmm.. really thank God for this brother too.. yea.. we are spiritual buddies le.. althought i only have a few weeks before i transfer but we didnt miss this chance to be covenanted as each other spiritual buddy.. must teach me guitar too k.. haha..
ya.. plus want to thank God for liyan, joshua and giselle! have a great time at settlers' cafe last sun. althought i might not express them in my words and/or we seldom talk but i really feel touched by you guys whenever i see ya guys... thanks for being my shepherd josh.. althought we dont share a common interest but we share a common vision and faith in our heart (that is to serve Him together!).
stressful period? couldnt get results for the final yr project? sometimes we do meet failures, setbacks and stress.. i think we should focus less on our failures, stress etc... BUT focus all our attention on Him, believe in Him that He will turn every situations fine. i believe that kind of extraordinary faith will motivate ya to do even better. ya will have a clearer mind and a correct heart attitude to continue on with ya experiments.. those who ask will receive, those who seek Him will find and those who knocks, the door will be opened! dont worry too much k! focus on His ability to help ya (and not the problems)! i've been through that tough period whereby i couldnt get any pcr products for my project.. true, at first its demoralizing and frustrating but i put aside all these negative thoughts. and in the end i have a clearer mind to think, clearer mind to evaluate where my problems lies and clearer mind to set my goals.. i become more peaceful and still and God really helps me during that period.. my techniques improve... walk in accordance with the Spirit... God cant clear ya path till you are still.. ya can do it! =) start each day with anticipation that God will protect ya with His grace and mercy.
the day is coming soon.. suddenly have a feeling wanting to spend more time with my nyp bros... these are the ppl that God has placed in my life who walk closely with me.. we encourages each others.. fellowship with each others.. learning together.. growing in maturity together and serving Him together with a common heart and purpose... yesterday service was great... the atmosphere is so happening... another few more weeks for me to enjoy the sat service. haha.. had a enjoyable long chat with ken during dinner...yea.. his enthusiastic heartbeat for God and his desire to outreach to people encourages me alot.. he shared with me some of his views and asked me lots of questions.. haha.. yea con't to grow in maturity brother! this week has been quite a fruitful week for me.. the relationship between God and me grew so much more intimate.. i can sense His calling for me.. i can sense His Holy Spirit comforting me and correcting my wrongs.. its just so miraculous... enjoy His presence alot... haha.. thank God i'm in Your family.. today supposed to learn abt the purpose driven life sermon at cyvia's church but woke up late.. actually i planned not to slp last nite.. i wanted to read and spend more time with Him.. listening to worship songs... i just dont feel like slping last nite.. haha that's the reason why i cant wake up early this morning.. paiseh cyvia =b.... hmm.. apart from nyp bros.. i want to spend more time with my spiritual buddies.. but there's just no time... hmm.. nvm... yay.. ya know.. althought i cant bear to leave Poly/DI but i know God has a greater plan for me when i transfer to young adults group.. i know His plan for me never fail and harm me.. but prosper me... i can sense that.. i'm so excited for the new change.. the feeling is just so great.. i'm anticipating it.. i'm gonna outreach to the NS guys soon.. haha and i've already plan what i'm going to do after my NS.. i believe that's what God wants me to do.. hee.. the next few yrs in young adults group will be a great new learning experience for me as well as a preparation for what i'm planning to do after NS... i want to move on to the next maturity stage... yea... i'm gonna live life to the fullest with no regrets at all! btw next sunday is a very very special day to me.. haha.. ya guys can guess what is it? haha no prize for correct guessing =b
Open Up The Gatesby Planet Shakers We come into this Holy placeTo bring a sacrifice of praiseBow down before you and seek your faceWe sing of the mighty things you've done Cry out to you"let your will be done"Tell all the World you're the Holy OneHear the shouts of praiseAs they're rising up to youCome and fill this placeAs we bring glory to your name Open up the gates and let theKing of glory inFill this house with praises as we Lift our hands and worship youOpen up the doors and let yourGlory fill the earthKing of heaven we dance before your throne King of heaven come andTake your placeDwell among us as weSeek your face
the doctors here are so nice.. they are approachable and down-to-earth.. everytime i see them they will smile back at me.. because of my attchment i have to interact with doctors almost everyday to get patient's blood sample.. they are really friendly.. maybe it's because of their professions.. they have to interact with their patients and stuff like that.. but i really want to learn from their positive attitude.. i still remember dr lim gave us boxes of CNY cookies a few wks back.. haha.. and he kept on calling me friend in the beginnings coz he doesnt know my name.. haha.. funny.. then today dr wong gave me a packet of apple juice and choc bar. hmm.. haha.. sometimes i have fear talking to them.. haha... i mean they are professionals.. and i'm just a attachment student.. btw dr lim is more than 1.8m.. real tall.. haha.. okie.. mm.. alot of stuffs happen today.. had a not-so-friendly conversation with my friend today.. after all he doesnt really understand my problems and burdens.. i find that ppl are normally selfish.. and sometimes life is like that.. take for example when i made a mistake, my friend would quickly made this sentence "i'm not going to be responsible for that. it's your business".. i mean i dont want you to be responsible of course!.. it's my mistake i would admit it myself.. but at least can give me some encouraging words mah.. it's like after hearing that you more or less have a feeling that when u have troubles, you wont trust that this friend will lend a listening ears, be there for you comfort you blah blah.. but i guess he wasnt intentional.. he apologised after that... in the past when i was still a young christian, my friends made comments on christianity.. its quite a sensitive topic.. i mean they dont really understand and make assumptions in their comments.. i was abit shaken of course.. that's why now i'm quite reserved when talking to them.. i cant share my problems with them.. our faith are different.. well.. but we still hang out occasionally.. talk abt our sch work projects..they are nice friends... but when it comes to personal struggles i feel that i have feel ppl to turn to except God and a few church buddies.. i think i've lost the feeling of true friendship..i dont know
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