wow.. God is faithful! He answered my prayer! oh yup.. yea.. i was praying that i can improve my PCR these few days.. and joshua prayed for me yesterday too! finally after some optimization and being more focused during pipetting of the reagents, i finally got a band today!! althought it's not really clean.. coz there's some smear but it's an improvement too!! God really help me find back my confidence once again.. hee.. yay.. tml half-day.. i think i just go there complete my dna extraction and go home.. haha.. but i need to speed up my pace now.. coz i'll be receiving my project in a few wks time.. so now is like training my hand to be more skillful.. now only at the PCR stage.. still have a few more things to learn... =)
yup have a gd chat with liyan today.. and the NB's celebration party.. gosh.. i cant act realli.. hai.. still want me to act jay chou. haha.. feel so paiseh.. hee... anyway.. liyan reminded me abt being careful with the words that we often used.. coz she realised i always use the word stress.. so sub-consciously i might get stress easily coz it's in my mind alr.. yup same as negative comments.. if ya hear too much negative comments all the time, ya will get discouraged one day.. so i really urge every one of us to encourage one another everyday.. coz a man who refreshes others will him himself be refreshed!!
here's some verse for ya!!
Proverbs 21:23 He who guards his mouth and his tongue keeps himself from calamity.
Hebrews 3:13 But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.
feeling not gd.. weak.. vommiting.. headaches.. hamster escaped.. =(
had been suffering from slight depression yesterday.. haha.. not to worry.. just a minor one.. I'm amazed how God put me back to the right path so quickly yesterday.. ya knoe.. i cried abit yesterday... but stopped shortly after i heard His voice.. it's so miraculous... i just couldnt help crying yesterday... oh well.... everythin seems to go wrong man.. i couldnt get results... not productive enough... and my fren just ignored me totally when i'm down.. sigh... he didnt even say a word.. ya he didnt discourage me but neither did he encourage me.. sigh...i guess that's just his personalities ba.. but i hate that expression on his face man... i felt so stress when supervisor asked us abt our results.. sigh. everytime he will say that i couldnt get any result with a real weird expression looking at me... wad's the prob man..? i couldnt shallow my pride to try to communicate with him.. instead i kept quiet and showed him my attitude... sigh.. i really need to change.. thanx God today i manage to put on a friendly smile.. and we r quite okie now lar... i realise i need to be more humble... God stilled my heart during my QT.. i'm able to think more clearly and adjust my heart... yea... thanx gis.. i'm okie.. i guess i have to keep on ignoring those msgs ba... haiz.. i wont be affected (it's another guy btw if ya knoe wad i'm writing).. i'm not turning back... =)
oh yah.. my mom complaining now again.. haiz.. just because i'm not coming home for dinner tml and thu... i feel like i'm living in a cage man... but she's stressed abt my finanical thing lar.. sigh.. i understand... i alr skip meals and etc(w/o her knowing if not she'll definately kill me haha).. but today have to contribute money to buy chocs for the docs and nurses.. now left like a few dollars for the remaining wk??
haha.. havent been blogging for a long time... busy with my attachment and stuff... working is like so sian... coz my lab only have 4 ppl.. everyday see the same ppl.. haha.. and abit stressful... haiz... recently my DNA extraction keeps failing.. sigh.. i alr drawn my blood twice liao... i still rem first time i felt so weak after drawing my blood... coz i didnt have lunch earlier.. now a new protocol but quite unstable too.. every morning have to drag myself to work... haiz.. i miss sch
hmm had fun at jo-n hse last nite.. yea.. thanx God for this chance of fellowshiping.. somemore its a combined celebration between tp and nyp!! yupz.. finally get to chat with ritchie again.. hee.. jiayou bro... and con't to train to be gay ok.. haha... oops.. anyway just to comment, yup u did quite a gd job... i think ya gay contact will be so touched by ya.. keke.. anyway... so blessed to know u.. thanx for ya word of wisdom too.. learn sth frm you
yup.. and to ken and xing xing... really glad to have ya guys in our big family.. cont to seek God more and exp life to the fullest... =p
sigh.. i have been battling with this temptation inside me... haiz... how... sigh... i myself cant even control myself.. how to help others?? God................ y? if i didnt receive those msgs i wont be so moody rite now... every time i hear songs in the radio.. i feel so bad and sorrowful.... God... sometimes i thought i wont go back but i dont know... i think i can control it with His grace and Love.. but i begin to doubt myself again.... y... arh... nope.. i have to trust Him.. i'm doing this for Him... yessh...it's not abt me in this battle alone
yup and my mom.... ahh.. sometimes i feel like i'm stuck in the middle... i want to do more for God.. but i cant.. coz i'm restricted somehow.. if i'm always hanging out fellowshipping, she will complain.. hai... i dont know wad to do to please her man... it's so hurting to see her worrying abt me.. y cant she understand i can take care of myself? for e.g walking home from tampines interchange after 1am coz i miss the last bus.. this happen afew times.. i'm a guy lor.. wad would i be afraid of... hmm.. i dont mind saving up those taxi fees by walking home.. haiz...
Running After You
by Planet Shakers
Your Word is a light unto my pathYour Love guides me through my darkest nightAnd even though sometimes Your waysI cannot understandI’ll never walk away because my future’sIn Your hands
I don’t care what people will sayI’m running after YouI won’t turn back and go their wayCoz I’m running after YouYeah I’m running after YouI’m running after You(I will run to You)
I don’t care what people will sayI’m running after YouI won’t turn back and go their wayCoz I’m running after YouDon’t matter what may come my wayI’m running after youIt’s You I’m following todayI’m running after You
I’m running after You
Student Conference (2 - 3 Dec)
God spoke to me a few times during these few days. pastor ben peached a powerful lesson on impt of God's Word. he told us how 'face the music' pharse is derived.. and he went on revealing a powerful point, that is 'God's Word will judge mankind'. the story stirred my heart quite alot.. i felt guilty after hearing the story. yes, i can hide frm my cL or uL now.. but i cant hide frm God. i have to be responsible for my own actions. God will not be deceived. i have to face His judgement one day. i haf been reflecting on myself on wad i had done ever since i received Christ. i need to change for His purpose to be done thru me. i cannot be a coward anymore. i need to get out of my personalities. i had always been afraid to voice out myself coz i have been self-condemning myself all this while. all the negative thoughts abt me being a nobody and yup someone dull and uninteresting had been revolving in my mind in the past. God i really need more courage frm ya. thanx for hitting me so hard in my heart for this, Lord.
the 2nd thing is that.. recently one of my pri sch fren asked me whether i want to make extra income and stuff like that.. i agreed coz i really need it... and i met him and went to the organisation. i dont know what that organisation is doing yup.. but i think it's some sort of multi-mkging company.... and the ppl over there told me their purpose is to help the ppl who have problems and who wants to make frens etc... i told him i need time to consider.. one of the pastor jeff's teachings is abt God's Covenant with His children.... and he said something like the church is like a God's covenant for us in this modern world. He wants to protect us and he is always faithful and trustworthy. He will help us in times of trouble and shield us frm harm. yup.. and ya i shouldnt seek for another place other than Hope when i have problems or when i need to earn extra income.... so i rejected my fren's offer... and i realise that one of the reasons i went to visit his organisation initally is because of my greed... becoz my fren told me if i want to make extra income then can meet up and talk.. Father... i didnt realise i have this greed in my heart until now... i need to change man.... thanx You for revealing this to me... luv Ya Father...
The Story of the Cheese and Cracker Christian
A man booked passage on a ship that was crossing the Atlantic. He brought with him enough money to buy a ticket, a block of cheese and some crackers for the long voyage. The first few days at sea the cheese and crackers tasted good, but eventually they became stale. Each day as he watched the porters carry large steaks, lobster, chickens and other delicious foods to the ship's guests, he became very hungry. In fact, he became so hungry that he grabbed one of the porters. "I'll do anything to get one of those steaks," he said. "I'll wash dishes, clean rooms, and even mop the deck." The porter replied, "You bought a ticket, didnt you? The meals come with the ticket."
The moment we become children of God through faith in Christ, we became heirs of God, and all of His divine supernatural resources are made available to us. Everything we need including wisdom, love, power to be men and women of God and to be fruitful witnesses for Christ is available to us. But most Christians continue to live in self-imposed spiritual poverty because they do not know how to appropriate from God those spiritual resources which are already theirs.
It is useless to try to live in our own power the kind of life God has commanded us to live. Our strength must come from the Lord! The Holy Spirit came to enable us to know Christ. When we receive Christ in our lives, we experience a new birth, and are indewlt by the Spirit. The Holy Spirit enables us to live and share the abundant life which Jesus promised to all who trusts Him.
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i learn alot from this article... you might be asking now how can we be filled with the fullness of Holy Spirit. the answer is by faith. yessh.. the moment we received Christ, we are alr filled with the Holy Spirit. it's the working of the Holy Spirit that prompted us to receive Christ by faith. everything we receive from God from the moment of our spiritual birth till our death is by faith. so bros and sis, let us walk in the Spirit everyday and not live according to the sinful nature. let our mind be controlled by our Holy Spirit, let our Holy Spirit direct our life. back to the question.. we can be filled by the Holy Spirit by faith alone. and prayer is one of the way of expressing our faith. and dont forget the concept of faith and deeds (James 2:18). after we haf prayed, lets exercise it. let 's utilize the unlimited available resources to us thru faith. let our strength and courage come frm our Lord, frm our Spirit during this sowing season! pray to God daily!
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