did a spiritual gifting questionnaires yesterday. the survey interpreted my five dominant giftings as helps, serving, giving, mercy and prophet!! that amazes me... but i really pray that God will reveal my gifts to me one day. so that i can utilize them to serve Him to my fullest abilities. yup... having two exams next wk, proteomics on wed and business mangement on thu! haha.. looking forward to thu man.. once my exams over, i can have more time to sow and outreach... also the lecturers will reveal my finalized attachment place and my yr 3 project!
.: Prayer :.
Lord no matter wad gifts You will give me, i will faithfully accept it and use it to the best of my abilities. Lord i thank You for Your grace that have poured on me everyday. I know i am responsible for my gifts. i will develop my gifts to help in my local church, in my ministry and glorify Your name on high. Lord i will use these spiritual gifts to bless my fellow bro and sis-in-christ. Lord I pray that thru this gifts, my character will be maturing at the same time too. so that i will be ready for Your return. In Jesus name, Amen.
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the paper was tough.. althought i did memorize but i forgot all the facts when i was doing the paper.. manage to ans most of the questions but rather incomplete.. i think at most a C le.. but thank God for that morning... when i was bathing, one of my my specs len fell off the frame.. luckily the screw is still there... if not, i would have wasted a whole lot of time searching for it! and i dont have a spare specs to wear.. wah.. after the paper, went home immediately.. planned to study for tml drug development paper but i slept throught the afternoon.. wasted alot of time... but lucky that module wasnt that difficult to digest.. haha.. manage to do it in afew hrs at late night...
wow.. the paper is still okay... i guess can get a B.. haha... yay!! most of the tips came out in the exam so there wasnt much prob.. hee... again i spent my whole afternoon slping.. ahh... sin.. and i havent even touch the sfg notes for the last few wks... signz.. no motivation.. temptations everywhere.. haha... my bed my com my tv wadever.. luckily at night i found a conducive place to study.. haha.. my hse kitchen.. yup i managed to stay awake till 5am in the morning.. closed the kitchen door to keep me away from all the temptations.. and imagine the fresh morning dawned. realli cooling man.. yea... u can try that too!
the paper is ok.. but i did a stupid mistake.. i left out one essay question unanswered.. my carelessness cost me 10 marks.. i was stunned when i realised that after the exam... i guess another B ba.. if only i realised my mistake during the exam, i think i might have the chances to get a A. a lesson learnt: read the instructions everytime when u sit for any paper. okie.. but then at least i know that God still blessed me greatly throughout these few days.. my specs and lack of time to study.. i admit i'm a last-min guy... but God still continue to bless me faithfully in my studies.. must change my bad habits.. having Cg later.. i better take a nap now.. bye.. cya guys tml!!
cool weather.. but why?? why at this exam period.. make me feel sleepy.. haha... reading thru His Word just now.. make me feels refreshed once again!!! i feel more energized now.. yay.. can study more... haha.. having lunch so thought of blogging...
i was reading thru James just now. while reading thru James... happen to find that many verses in the book actually speak to me at that point of time... one of the key verse is James 2:18 ["But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds." Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do."]. it's about faith and deeds. living faith makes a difference. we have to make sure our faith is more than a statement. our faith should always translates into action and good deeds and not just knowing it. even devils know God exists, but do they obey?
the other verse goes like this "Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crops and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near." - James 5:7-8. like farmers, we should wait patiently, be well-prepared and look for ways to extend God's kingdom before His return. i'm sure these verses have much more meaning than wad i've wrote. hope u guys can meditate on it and allow God to speak to you if u have time.. cheerios..
okie.. haha.. share with u guys one more thing... last night my mom asked me whether i have any intention to leave church... hmm.. and she questioned abt my tithing too.. i gave her an obvious 'no' answer. the situation is so strange.. i afraid i'll make her feel sad.. but thank God, nothing happened.. i hope that she'll understand me and of crse Christ one day..
-=yawnz=- studying is so boring.. but the atmosphere is getting tenser and tenser. wed will be my first paper - mbid. follow by thu - drug development and fri - sfg... anyway weibin and i promised to support jonathan in his bowling competition in the morning.. but i was too tired that i overslept.. in the end i didnt go.. hmm.. i woke up ard 11am and study for awhile... then weibin called me later in the noon asking me whether i wanted to play bball and badminton with them and the DI ppl. i agreed because i wanted to de-stress.. haha.. sometimes must relax abit also.. but anyway planning to study later from midnight till the morning since i didnt study in the afternoon. yup.. the bball game was interesting. althought i didnt play much but it was interesting hanging ard with them and observing their bball skills. met donnie again today.. hmm.. he accompanied me to the bus stop when i was going home. this time we talked abt our future plans after we graduate. seriously i havent think abt it much coz i have no idea wad my job will be like after graduation. haha.. i admire donnie's vision and ambition actually.. really pray that he will succed in everything he does in the future, his dreams, his spiritual growth etc... oh yah.. suddenly remember ritchie's and cyvia's advice.. have to make full use of my time to study =).. okie.. cya guys ard..
wow.. today sermon as promised by pastor jeff is so powerful and inspiring (at least to me) that i want to share with u guys... pastor jeff preached the sermon with such strong conviction... the title is "achieving your greatest life contribution". to highlight some impt points, look at the pics i've drawn (paiseh for bad drawing! ha ha).
the whole sermon is so funny and inspiring.. kind of regret that my contacts didnt visit the service today. they missed all the good stuff.. anyway.. after the service and dinner, supposed to play pool with my bros and DI bros at the cappage basement. in the end i just stood there and watched.. haha.. because i wanted to save money. donnie and i were outside the pool arcade and we chatted for quite some time. finds that he is a fun and sincere bro. he gave me some encouragements too and shared with me the story of Cain and Abel in the book of Genesis. cool.. hee.. enjoy chatting with him. after pooling, went to the lan game arcade to join some other bros. they were playing frozen throne.. as usual i only watched them play la.. then i did one very stupid thing. coz i wasnt playing and my computer is on so the shop owner asked me to help him shut down the pc.. after the whole pc is shut down, i try to find the 'power' button. thinking that the power button belongs to the pc, i pressed it lor. guess what, my fren who was sitting beside me in the process of playing the game was interrupted. because i actually pressed his pc's power button!!! very stupid rite! haha.. i feel so bad man... after that went home with ritchie as usual.. he told me some strange things. then before he alighted the bus he told me he was joking.. hmm... haha.. that's all.. got to slp now.. take care guys!
Hahaz.. at last CT exam is over.. didnt manage to study and prepare this paper well... wasnt very prepared.. but once again managed to do most of the questions in the paper.. esp the 2 eassy questions that cost 60 marks!! Thank God man! I think I can at least secure a 'B' for this module (althought I aimed for an 'A')... Hmm.. nvm abt not meeting my goal.. now I know my problem lies in time mangement.. well.. 4 more days to the next paper... I have the wisdom from God but now I need more strength and motivation to study... O Lord.. Help me.. an advance thanx to You =) .:something to ponder:.
This is what the Lord says:
"Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom
or the strong man boast of his strength
or the rich man boast of his riches
but let him who boasts boast about this:
that he understands and knows me...."
Jeremiah 9:23-24
Reason: Bored.. Okie.. back to my revision..
Supposed to meet my sec sch frens yesterday but was cancelled in the end due to some miscommunication. Sighz.. partly is my fault la... Whenever they asked me out in the past, I was always not free... Today is their first day of their SIP, hope everything runs smoothly.. Jiayou peeps.. Just got home.. At last two papers down.. phew.... I guess I can hit my targets set for these 2 modules.. yay!! Didnt have much peace these few days because of the tests... Slight running nose these few days. My immune system is going down =|... Now have to get prepared for the coming CT test on Fri which is a major one, 60%!! God bless me. Tml business classes are going to be at the business block coz the lecturers cant book the Blk Q LTs. I guess its the first time having lessons over at the other sch.. Sounds cool...oh yah, and the dress-code must be smart casual.. Hmm.. Okie.. getting out of here soon.. Gd luck for my CT revision..
Dear Jesus... My heart feels so empty this morning.... and weary... went thru small little testings today. as usual was in a rush to sch, but the bus was ultra slow. I got more and more impatient. Many different words begin to fill my heart. Strangely a few secs later, my mind stop thinking of all these and become peaceful again... I decided to read and took a small nap on the bus instead. when i opened my eyes, I saw the stadium.. hahaz.. it's near the mrt.. i know You are with me all along in the bus (in fact always). Thanx for accompany me!
Your Sincerely,
After my lessons ended in the afternoon, I was feeling low and irritated coz tml is my test! Arghz.. havent study yet and I have to rush afew assignments by tonight. I was thinking wad am I going to do. Weichang asked me afew questions after the class but i was too tired and didnt really ans him. I was discussing the business project with Jackie over the lunch, I voiced out in quite a demanding way. I think i was adding more stresses to him that time... i shouldnt have done that. After lunch, we were walking towards mrt.. I was cold towards Chee How and Weichang coz i felt like getting out of the place.. i dont know why.... and i hate the idea of walking alone in front of them. I just couldnt control my moods today. I thought i had overcome this feeling long ago... but now its coming back to me again... I didnt say goodbye to them. When i'm alone in the bus, i began to reflect myself... praise and worship songs were all over my head. I adjusted back to myself after that. Thanx for the wonderful music You have created. I'll always remember =)
Enjoyed myself today alot!! I've never been so happy ever since i join Hope.. took bus 65 in the morning.. thought i'll be on time for the resource training, but that bus took nearly one and a half hr to reach somerset!! arghz.. usually it only takes ard 1hr.. yupz... Eilton, so paiseh late again this wk.. after the training, i slacked ard orchard road since DPM starts at 3.30pm... bumped into Joshua along the way. went back to nexus auditorium to see if there's anybody there who can accompany me.. hahaz.. but found no one.. so went starhub foodcourt to read my Bible.. surprisingly found Leslie, Yiquan and Eilton studying there.. Don, Karshun and Jonathan joined in later.. after that we headed back to Nexus for DPM.. Excited for my first ushering duty today! hahaz.. I find so much joy when serving God! But now I have to make a decision to stay in Hope resource or ushering. I really like both... Can I choose both? Hee.. I think I have to discuss that with my shepherd and leader next wk...
After service and dinner, went home together with Ritchie and Qing Cai.. have a nice chat with Qing Cai.. realli inspired by ya simple faith and obedience for God.. Jia you man! hope u can achieve ya '1 sheep' goal by this christmas! and I really want to thank God for Ritchie.. Althought we are from different unit.. but he still put in his time and effort to help me when i was struggling with my walk with God earlier this yr.. *sob sob* okie.. before i get too emotional.. Haha.. Thank God for Ritchie! I pray that u will be happy always and increase ya sheep no!! Hahaz.. let's work hard together!
Sching has been quite slacking these days. Most of the lessons are revisions. This morning as usual woke up quite late. Because there's a test in the morning, i had no choice but to take a cab to sch. I think this test result will be quite bad, coz focus on the wrong areas. But nvm it only constitutes 10% in the final grade. Thank God! Hee. Yupz... after all the lessons ended, went to northpoint to buy a black polo tee for tml ushering. Then rushed back to sch for shepherding. Realli enjoy the sheperding session alot. Coz i learned some new things today! Hahaz.. Going to share with u guys.. The lesson is about a leader's role in bringing renewal. One of the role of leadership is to serve God (set apart time and resources) wholeheartedly. This sounds simple but it takes alot of discipline to really do it. Althought many pplz have been encouraging me to plan my wk fully ahead to maximize my time for Him. But i find it difficult to start coz i'm quite a lazy guy.. Haiz.. Nvm.. i pray every night that God will help me to overcome my laziness =p. The second thing that speaks to me during the shepherding session is fasting. I usually fast primarily to save money.. the whole concept is wrong. I repent.. Yup it's like wad Joshua had said, if fasting without praying then it would become a normal dieting. My Holy Spirit actually prompted me just now to search and read more abt fasting.. i read thru the 2004 June camp booklet and have better understanding. To summarise fasting enables us to become overcomers, help us stay focus, and most importantly increase our faith. Okie that's all! Hahaz.. a long entry.. really excited abt tml service!!! hahaz.. and tml is my first day doing usher duty... looking forward to it.. okie cya guys.. have a great wkend ahead!!
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